Learning to Live Again

It has been exactly a year since my last post and nearly 2 since I wrote about my dinner with another man - https://www.learningtoliveaga...

Another post after a long silence…. I can’t lie about it. Life is too hectic, stressful and downright shit. I find myself constantly...

Where have the last 2 months gone? In a flurry of tears, laughter, worries and love. They have been the toughest I’ve been through in 2+...

….It is a lifetime of memories and happiness. This photo was taken in 2018 when we were walking up the Alps on a trip to Montreux for a...

I have just walked into an empty house. A very empty and lonely house. Both the boys are out with friends for Halloween and staying over....

This is becoming a habit. Long bouts of not posting anything and then coming with a string of reasons and excuses. Well….the pattern...

I had dinner with a lovely man today. First time since Paul went that I’ve been out with another gentleman. It was a very pleasant...

What do you say to someone who is in hospital and unresponsive? This was the conversation I had today with B whose dad is in hospital....

It has been ages since my last blog post and I have felt all sorts of emotions including guilt for not being active on my blog. I feel...

I’ve lost track of time. Last few weeks are blurring into a summary line of tears, arguments, conversations, chores and constant guilt....

This last month has been a wake-up call. A wake-up call to put chores aside, to put trying to be the perfect person aside. I’ve been so...

I'm actually finding things harder second time around. There's a notion that 1st anniversaries are the hardest and once you get past...

Hi sweetheart, Tomorrow is going to be a big day for me......A really big one. Remember the puzzle I'm putting together now......and the...

Well....not as dramatic or as clear-cut as 'the last piece'. But it certainly is a big piece of the puzzle. I love jigsaw puzzles....

I was sat on the sofa this evening after dinner just winding down and staring into space and unbeknownst to me, I was starting to get...

People say time is a healer. People say that with time life gets easier. It hasn't so far. One of the reasons I tend to write my blog...

Today is our 22nd wedding anniversary. My 2nd without Paul. Our last one together was our 20th anniversary in 2019 and we had an amazing...

It was dinner time today and I was in a rush to cook dinner to feed our forever-starving teens. Decided to cook a simple dhal, cabbage...

I struggle. I suffer. I cry. I ache. I laugh. Then I get hit with an avalanche of guilt that I'm laughing. that I'm able to laugh,...

It is 4 o'clock Boxing Day evening and I've had a few texts today asking how our Christmas Day went. I'm in awe of the love people have...